That is what I have been wondering the past few weeks. Do I really feel like I am living life? To be honest right now, no. My weekdays consist of waking up, getting ready for work, going to work, coming home, making dinner, working out, picking up junk throughout the house, cleaning up after dinner, sometimes some small relaxation moment, getting ready for bed, then bed. Wake up, get ready to do it all over again Monday through Friday.
This past weekend I worked through the weekend to get a large work project done. I did, and in record time. I even saved the company money by working all weekend. But in doing so, have been coming to work really tired, fried and grumpy (hopefully that last part stays on the inside).
I guess I just feel like my life is passing me by and I am not really doing anything with my life that is of much value to me, or anyone else. I know that some of that is just due to my situation, if we can call it that at the moment. Sure, there are things I would want to do if I was able to do them. Travel. I want to go so many places, see and experience so many things, but you need disposable income, or a job that allows you to do that. I have neither at the moment.
And I believe in the saying that says if you are not happy, and want to be happy, change something, but really? In some instances, that is just really not an option.
At this point in my life, I have been wanting to move. Not just a town or two over, but really MOVE! Derick doesn't really want to because he wants to still be close to family, and I totally get that, but then again, we don't have any kids, we are just us right now. Now would be the perfect time to do it, if we were able. But again, not so much.
I know that money doesn't solve everything, but, quoting a quote I found the other day, "All I am asking for is that I would like the opportunity to prove that money can't make me happy." haha. I liked that one.
Well I guess that is about all for now. more later,
-L
2 comments:
My friend likes to say, "money can't make you happy, but being poor can really piss you off." :)
I hope life catches up with you... or you catch up with life soon. Remember that in the end all you can control is your reaction to what life gives you. Hugs and smiles to you!
ah-ha! So we are finding ourselves in the same emotional boat, eh?
Laura, I completely understand your feelings. I know money can't solve problems, but I really feel like it would provide a temporary feeling of liberation...if anything.
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